How things roll!

மூலையில் தனிமையில் கசங்கி கிடப்பதிலிருந்து வானத்தில் மீண்டு பறப்பதாய் மாறி மாறி  சுழல்கிறது  இந்த பாதை .  பறக்கும்போது தொலைவதை விட , தனிமையில் நான்கு சுவற்றுக்குள்ளே என்னை தொலைத்து பின் மீட்டெடுத்த சம்பவங்களின் அனுபவங்கள் என்றும் மீண்டும் விரிய காத்திருக்கின்றன. பறத்தலின் அனுபவங்களை அவளின்  ஒளியிழையில் பதிய முயன்று தோற்றுப்போயிருக்கிறேன்.  திசைகளற்ற வெளியில் பறத்தலில் வெற்றி தோல்வி பற்றிய குறிப்புகள்   இருப்பதாக தெரியவில்லை அல்லது அவ்வாறாக சொல்லித்  தேற்றிக்  கொள்கிறேன். நாளை பரிசளிக்கப்பட வேண்டிய நினைவுக்குறிப்புகள் பதியப்படாமல் போனது பற்றி அவளுக்கு தெரியாது. நாளை என்னவென்பதைப்பற்றி நான் அறியாததைப்  போல்..தோற்றுப்போதல் அனுபவங்களின்  மேல்  அடுக்குகளை  உணர்த்துவதாய் தொடங்கியிருக்கிறது இந்த வருடம்.. பறத்தலை எதிர்நோக்கி மூலையிலிருந்து..  

I'm continuing from where I left.. The place was fixed and it was Varanasi. My plan was to get there before the new year. At first, I had no company in mind (actually had one!) but then I found a friend of mine also had the same plans as mine! Later we started booking tickets and the thing is we were left with one choice to reach Varanasi which is Chennai-Agra-Lucknow-Varanasi.    Yet it was a terrible idea, we didn't mind because we cared only about the destination. That really helped us to understand about the people, landscape, whether as such. The plan was to stay in Varanasi for 3 days. The first day we walked all day along the ghats of the river Ganges and shot some pictures. The next day we explored the other ghats we didn't explore the first day. During the night time, we shared our knowledge of photography and music. Though I had shot some 600 pictures from the past days I wasn't satisfied.  My friend told me that I have to work on my perspective

       Its been almost a year since i received those film rolls from her. I was sent two of Tri X 400s(BnW) and 2 of Provia 400H (color) rolls which are what exactly i asked for.  I promised myself to use those rolls wisely not just because they're expensive but also i believe that the films are sacred!    It happened to me via two American portrait and wedding photographers named Ryan Muirhead and Tanja Lippert whom i found on YouTube who only uses analogue medium. I saw them capturing a whole wedding using this medium,  That's not the thing which inspired me to shoot film but the psychology he (Ryan) explained why he chooses film over digital.  That inspired me right away. .And from then, I started to search the process of shooting/developing film rolls. I must admit that I was quiet frightened after seeing those chemistry(darkroom process) things because it requires tonnes of knowledge and experience but is also interesting at the same time.  P.C Google   After s

When i realize things about this world and when I discover little philosophies or when i feel happy or sad, i want to share them with someone and its been always her. I'm not helped by any of these communication devices when I want make a small talk. So now why am i writing this or who am i telling to if she never read it? I don't know. I just don't know. :)  Lets publish it for nobody's sake!